Thursday, March 13, 2014

3/13/14

Tonight… so first off, our house is suffering from a slight centipede infestation.  For those who don’t know, Hawaiian centipedes pack a punch.  Some people who are unlucky enough to find out after the fact are allergic and the sting is possibly fatal.  Almost as painful is the bite.  They get to be 6 inches or longer and have blue coloring.  For 13 months I didn’t see one alive, a few dead in the driveway after a big rain.  Now we have dozens in the ceiling.  Small bitty fuckers, that probably couldn’t bite through the skin, but only getting bigger.

Now on my way to bed, there is a leaf tucked up in my door jam.  I walk by several times, it doesn’t move.   But I notice that it has a tail and the more I look I realize that it might also have legs.  It might not be a leaf … scorpion.  So far I haven’t even heard that they have those on the island.   Given its disconnect from the mainland there are many things that just never made it here, I’m not sure if scorpion is on the list.  I check Robyn’s room for a dirty glass, there is a better chance of that being the case then you might think.  But no success, so I go get a class from the kitchen.  It hasn’t move yet, why should it run now.  Come back and sure enough I have trapped a scorpion in my bedroom doorway.  

After a bit of debate I decide that my karma has been pretty good these last couple weeks, I have found $80 on the ground ($20, $20, and $40).  So instead of throwing the scorpion in the fire outside (roommates were having a little bonfire to enjoy the night) maybe it would be better to release him.  But as I am coming to this decision, a fire truck arrives and 4 fire fighters have come to investigate our fire pit.  Apparently someone down in the valley below has seen our little fire and was concerned that our house was burning down.  They were very nice, told us that for cooking or religious services a fire was ok, but otherwise it is frowned upon.  Vieve quickly extinguished it and they headed off. 


The scorpion, while already decided it could live, was clearly not met to go in the fire.  It was released over the side of the house back to not my room.  Now its almost 1am, I have to work at 7am and I can’t sleep for shit…and the internet doesn’t work, so this is going to have to wait to be posted for at least a day or so.

Monday, March 10, 2014

3/9/2014

On the big island for the weekend and have been having a great time.  Marina has now met both sets of parents and I think it was pretty painless.  But the weekend distractions have been pretty good.  Friday we went diving, two dives.   A reef dive and night dive with the manta rays.  The first dive was amazing, the visibility was so much better than where I dive on a regular basis.  Saw so many things from the basic eels and fish to garden eels, spinner dolphins, octopus, and a nudibranch.  Even on the way to the dive our boat stopped for a couple whales that were within 20 feet of the boat for about 10 minutes.

The second dive was Marina's first night dive and was also re aally cool.  It was supposed to be the manta ray night dive where everyone gathers and uses their lights to attract plankton and briang in the rays.  Not many came through, but still saw 3 and 1 stayed overhead for a while circiling and being awesome.  Saw a whole bunch of custraceans, lobster, shrimp, something in a big shell and an eel eating a fish.  Overall the dive was great.  I am a huge fan of the night dives and cant wait to do more.

Then on Saturday we went to volcano and checked the national park out.  It was pretty cool although the lava flows in the area have stopped.  It was much better to come back at night and see the crater lighting up the area from the glow.  My cell phone did not do it mcuh justice but thankfully Terry was able to get some good shots.  This morning we hiked through the crater and walked across the old volcano flow.  The landscape was unreal in distant plantet kind of way.  What Mars or the Moon should look like, but the weather was great and with mild overcast and good wind it was a really pleasant hike for  walking on Mars.  After the hike we had lunch in Hilo and headed back to Kona.  One more day here and then its back to Oahu and time to get ready to move...

Monday, March 3, 2014

March 3, 2014

updates...
school finished yesterday for the last real term.  Still waiting on one grade, but should be another straight A term.  Passed the research class so now the last term is going to be finishing my research project and defending my project.  Should be pretty easy as I am confident with what I have put together so far.  Then I am done. Will have a masters degree and the debt to prove it, question is now what to do with it...

I have started working at Smart Karate teaching martial arts to kids.  I think through them I am going to be able to get a black belt in karate, although to be honest I'm not sure what that would be worth at this point in my martial arts progression.  Some of the knowledge, self-defense and weapons stuff is fun, but a lot of the abstract and fancy kicks that they teach for the higher level belts is really not that useful.  Plus having the belt doesn't get me more MMA matches... but who knows.  Would be fun to have, but would prefer one in BJJ.  That might take a few more years, or a decade.

The dive job has been going better since the new captain, George has been handling more of the admin duties.  Staffing seems to be running better as well since they removed one of the divers and replaced him with a string of new people, they never seem to last that long.  One of the current divers is going to be sailing a boat that he made from Hawaii to the mainland.  When he takes off I am going to move to three days a week from two.  But at the moment he is waiting for a window in the weather.  Between that and Smart Karate I am almost to a real number of hours working in a week.  Not quite, I  want to ease myself into it.

I think I will try to get myself one more fight to try and redeem the loss from January.  Maybe in May or June when I can really dedicate myself to work and training without the third distraction of school.  Not sure what kind of schedule I will have once I start the hunt for a real job or something that might use either Chinese or psych so I want to get another fight in while I know I have the time for a good training camp.

Last real update is that Marina and I will be moving together and got word today on an apartment on liholiho street.  Going to be signing the papers in a couple days, trip to the big island to see my mom and then time to move in.  The Robert place house is starting to wrap up and slowly cleaning out the house.  At least stocking the kitchen should be pretty easy.  Pics of the new place to come.

Sunday, January 26, 2014

January 25th, Blaisdal Arena, MMA Fight, Not So Good

Last night did not go so well.  Fight ended at the close of the first round.  At the moment I am still not entirely clear what the actual decision/reason was.  I don’t really remember the course of events after the middle or so of the fight.  I took a couple good right hooks to the side of the head, evidence of that in lumps, tenderness and purple/bruised ear on the left side of my head.  The inside leg kick was landing, but I wasn’t linking that to anything else.  Instead of taking advantage of him being off balance and closing in for a follow-up combination, I think I was glad that I bought myself a moment to try and get my head together to avoid another hook.  Looking back I needed to try and counter that hook, spent so many rounds and pad time working and coming in on the punch to counter with the straight right or the 2-3-2, but just couldn’t bring myself to feel confident enough to step in and throw with the fear that the right hook was somehow going to double up.  As I think about it now I am pretty sure the straight right would have been clean down the middle.  Must have been really frustrating to be in my corner after all that work to see me hold back that combo. 
            As the fight came to an end, I’m not sure what exactly happened.  I was pretty sure the round had to close to over, thought I heard the 10 second bell.  Then the ref was in front of me; I thought he was directing me to the corner.  I asked him something, either; is the round over and I think I say him waiving off the fight so I tried to ask why the fight was over.  But I stress I think that’s what happened because I am really not sure.  Then I realized there was a fair amount of blood coming down my face, mostly my nose.  I don’t really remember from there to the locker room.  But it was straight to the bathroom to bleed all over the floor.  Between myself and Shojin (fighter and training partner) who was the fight before (broke his nose) the bathroom looked pretty nasty.  Possible murder scene and the cheap bathroom towels did not help to absorb anything.  Later one after we were cleaned up and head back together, Shojin was trying to clean up the mess we had left, but started leaking out the nose faucet, dripping once for every drop he cleaned.  It seemed to sum up the night.  After a little while, everything comes back into focus.  Spent some time getting myself cleaned up.  Went out had a beer.  Felt much better.
            I’m trying to figure out why I didn’t counter.  I know was backed down a bit by the power.  I was expected him to be quick, but was rocked pretty early by one of the hooks and was afraid that if I got hit with another it might not put me out, but was going to leave me badly dazed.  I was also waiting for the left straight to follow-up, might have but the right side feels pretty clean so either it didn’t happen or it missed.  I am used to counter punching, but when the power in his shots backed me down, I wasn’t confident enough to risk the counter.  On offense the leg kick was working great, the one head kick was good, but didn’t press the punches or take advantage of him being off balance. 
            The other thing was different was that I wasn’t looking forward to the fight.  It was different in the prefight.  Usually the week before I get really nervous/anxious about a week to a couple days out, but as the day draws I also get excited and look forward to stepping out there.  This fight I was excited.  It felt more about getting it done so that I could move on to the next thing.  Like it was something that I do, I’m going to keep doing, but this one just didn’t feel like something I wanted, more felt obligated, to myself and for the people I was training with.  I think the biggest disappointment comes from letting down the coach and the team.  You want to represent your team and show what you and the gym can do.  Getting TKO’d at the end of the first round doesn’t really do that very well.  It happens.  I would like to find a way to get that fire back that I had at the last fight.  I think need to change my training a little.  I wanted more diverse training partners more proper MMA focus to bring the Muay Thai and BJJ together.  I definitely do not want to finish on a loss. 

            Maybe with school and the job pressure and everything else it was too much.  I don’t know, but next term with school winding down, working a martial arts job, and less distractions I can get my head back to where I want it to be.

Sunday, December 8, 2013

12/08/2013

Yesterday was the BJJ blue belt test at the UFC gym in Honolulu.  Finally, I have been able to test for my blue belt and passed the test.  In reality it was pretty easy and more of knowledge review that real test.  All 17 people who took the test passed.  Although after my last performance at the triple crown grappling tournament, it would seem that staying in the white belt competition group might be better since I didnt do so well in that group.  Then I would have been near the top of group, now I am back at the bottom of the blue belt ranks.

The one good thing that comes from this is the sparring groups that take place on Sunday, although that is my surf day.  The groups usually are looking for blue and higher to make sure that everyone has at least some skill to make it more fun for everyone.

The last couple weeks has been a real heavy focus on my jujitsu, now its time to get back to more complete MMA training.  I am waiting for a match confirmation to fight on the Destiny card in January.  I am looking forward to training at HMC with a more MMA focused coach along with Arthur from M-1 and the grappling at UFC.  Between the three gyms I think its a really good dynamic and mix of styles.  The last couple times grappling I have felt like my control and submission flow has been a lot smoother.  Although I still have not been finishing as well as I would like, if I can work on holding positions and transitions then the MMA ground should be a lot better and wont have to worry about being on the ground as much.  Also will make getting back to my feet a lot easier.

Have an interview with some people at a group called smart karate next week, maybe I can start teaching some martial arts as well as training it all the time...

Monday, November 25, 2013

A long Weekend, 11/25/2013

This past weekend ended being rather packed.  Saturday was the Hawaii Triple Crown BJJ tournament.  I entered both the white belt gi and intermediate no gi at 137-149.  I weighed in at 149.9, a good start, but that was about the only good thing.  I lost all three of my matches.  Although I did get third in the no gi division... there were only competitors though.  On the plus side, I was not submitted, but lost on points.  Sport juijutsu is not quite my game.

The gi match was somewhat questionable in my mind and if it had been scored by fight rules I think I should have won.  I had the only submission attempt and was pretty close.  I lost 4-2 on points and ran out of time before I could capitalize on the position gained from the sub attempt.  My opponent went on to win that division.

In the no gi, I lost the first match, he was better.  Second match though ended going to a second OT round and lost on a take down.  0-2.  Spent the whole match trying to break my opponents guard and was just somewhat frustrating.

I realize that sport BJJ is not my specialty, if that had been MMA I would have been happy to stay in guard and hit them.  Much easier to break guard when you can punch people, but it was a good experience.  The only real frustration comes from how short matches are and how long the event is for $80.  Spent the better part of 6 hours there for a total of 20 minutes.  Even if I had won all my matches it still would only have been less than an hour of match time.  The NAGA is better attended, it may be worth it, but then I am not sure how much more I want to lose on points...

Then Sunday was the Xterra half marathon at Kuolua Ranch.  I was really hoping that my knee would hold up on the trails better than it did on the pavement... but it didnt. I felt like I was putting in a really good time, first 10 miles in 80 minutes, holding about that 8 minute mile pace on the trails and making up for the slow start that comes from too many people packed on tight trails and bottle-necking.  But about mile 8/9 I started feeling that ache in my knee and by mile 10 I couldnt keep pushing without knowing that last time I was unable to run for weeks afterwards.  The uphills were fine, but the trails had some really steep downhills that I couldnt handle and had to walk.  The last 3 miles took 45 minutes.

The most annoying part though ironically was all the support people were trying to offer as they went by.  At first it was nice, "you can do it" "your almost there" etc.  But I wasnt tired.  I wasnt walking because I was fatigued, my knee couldnt handle it and I was thinking "aaahhh I can out run all of you, I dont need encouragement to overcome fatigue I need a cortisone shot".  Anyway I walked most of the last 3 miles, running up the hills and walking down and jogged through the finish at 2:08:00.  I really would have liked to been able to finish at the 1:40-1:50 pace I was on, but hope that I was able to slow enough to be able to recover faster than the 4 weeks it took after the last one.

To that end I am going to meet with the PT today and see what they have to say.  My right knee can handle it fine, so there should be a way to get the left one to work.  I just hope it can be in shape quick so I can run to keep my cardio up for my next MMA fight.  Unlike this weekends events, that one I am not going to lose.


Wednesday, November 6, 2013

A self analysis



Cultural Values:
A Self-Analysis
Brian Long
The Chicago School of Professional Psychology





Schwartz proposed ten separate value types that can be used to measure individual value preferences (Smith, Bond, & Kagitcibasi, 2006).  The ten value types, created from a list of 56 original values, can help to measure values at an individual level and then be used to extrapolate trends to be evaluated at a national level.  Finding a way to evaluate the meaning of values and beliefs becomes challenging when one considers that ‘being a good friend’ or ‘expressing love’ can take on different forms in different cultures.  Finding equivalence in ideas and value expression is the first step in attempting large-scale multinational or cross-cultural comparisons.  However, before one begins to examine others, it is useful to have deep understanding of oneself.
Using Schwartz’s 10 value dimensions, this author will perform a self-analysis.  Using the broad bipolar horizontal and vertical dimensions to start, this author would place himself in the corner of openness to change and self-enhancement (Smith et al., 2006).  However, there are several values in other areas that are very important and should be included in this author’s self-analysis.  Each value and its importance to this author will be examined in turn.
1.              Power.  Concern over public image, social power or recognition has never been very important to this author.  While wealth is always nice to have, it is not worth the endless pursuit that some of this author’s peers have sacrificed to achieve.  Overall, there are many other values more important than power.
2.              Security.  This author is split on the values that comprise security.  Aspects such as clean and reciprocation of favors are very important.  However, other aspects, such as sense of belonging, are not a high priority.  Having lived among cultures where it was made clear this author was an outsider and enjoying that life, belonging in a place is what you make.
3.              Conformity.  While self-discipline is important, this author would not include that value as part of conformity.  Conformity is not a value that this author embodies or believes to be beneficial.  Breaking the norm helps advance society in new directions, not always the best directions, but challenging traditions is what leads to new breakthroughs in thought.
4.              Tradition.  Similar to conformity, tradition is something that does not hold much value to this author.  Just because its tradition doesn’t make it good, it makes it old.  Some traditions are great and help build a connection to the culture and history of a people, others are held on to long beyond their usefulness.
5.              Benevolence.  This value group is very important and where this author would place self-discipline.  Honesty, loyalty, responsibility and friendship are values that this author tries to embody on a daily basis.
6.              Universalism.  Growing out of benevolence, universalism comes naturally; one cannot exist without the other.  Taking a broadminded view, equality and social justice, along with appreciation of nature are reasons why this author decided to move from China to Hawaii.  Life in China was an amazing experience, but the call of nature and enjoying the natural world in which you live was more important than the financial opportunities available.
7.              Self-Direction.  This value is the most important on the list.  It embodies the majority of the driving factors that have affected life decisions this author has made.  Choosing own goals, curious, freedom; these values motivated this author to move to China, study psychology, and engage in the lifestyle currently enjoyed.
8.              Stimulation.  This is a close second to self-direction.  Education and self-enhancement come first, but only as long as life can be exciting and fun.  It is the fun factor that makes the hard work worthwhile. 
9.              Hedonism.  While stimulation and self-direction are similar to hedonism, it lacks the self-regulation needed to achieve success.  Pleasure, for this author, comes from success and achievement, not simply for indulgence sake.
10.           Achievement.  This value would rank third in this author’s hierarchy of values.  Hard work, self-discipline and an exciting life payout in achievement.  While learning a new skill is a worthwhile endeavor, intelligence, ability and success are very important.  There is only so long this author can spend in a pursuit that does not yield some sense of achievement.
Classifying oneself on Schwartz’s value scale is difficult, trying to extend this to a culture of diverse individuals would be even more challenging.  Taking that beyond to multicultural comparisons is a trying task at best.  The research that has been put forward so far shows great convergence on the overall meaning behind each of the values measured by Schwartz, but more research will be needed to continually update and improve cross-cultural comparisons.



References
Smith, P.B., Bond, M.H., & Kagitcibasi, C.  (2006).  Understanding social psychology across cultures: Living and working in a changing world.  London: Sage Publications.